From pseudo- mom to whirl wind nanny, it is amazing how life
can change so quickly.
The past year I have spent with N-Bean and G-Force being, in
large, a third parent. I was with them most of the day and over-night here and
there. Not only was this a very steady job choice, but it was like gaining a
few family members. I have an extremely close bond with N, who calls me “Bor”
for reasons I am unsure of. G and I have a unique and close relationship as
well although it involves more head-butting (figuratively) and Lego building. It doesn’t just
end there. The whole family will be connected to me for life. I will make sure
of it.
In July, my lovely work family moved to Pittsburgh,
Pennsylvania. Over the summer I traveled to Pittsburgh to help the kids settle
into their neighborhood. If I am totally honest, I also did it because it made
the goodbyes much more gradual. I hate goodbyes, even if they are temporary. For
the rest of my life I will never forget saying goodnight to G the night before I flew back home. Tucking him in and hugging him tight. After which I climbed into N's big girl bed and snuggled up with her. I was okay, really, until she said "I wuv you, Bor". Then, in true Lauren fashion, I lost it. I bawled and kissed her goodnight and told her I loved her too. Even though I will see them
all again, it couldn’t help but feel like being face to face with the end to an
era. Most certainly a great year at the very least.
Now it is mid-September, and I am a woman of many jobs. All
in childcare. On Monday, and Tuesday I work with two wonderful little girls in
Bloor West Village. The other two days a week will hopefully be split between
two more families as soon as schedules are finalized. This makes for three
families a week. What a difference.
Part of me will miss growing a bond with one family, but another
part of me is excited to be that adult friend the kids see once or twice a
week. I am thrilled to be flying in and out of their lives and being in charge
of bringing on the fun. This next year should bring on a new side to my
childcare experiences, a new chapter to my life, and bring me ever closer to
being ready for mommy-hood myself (don't get any idea, family of mine).
Cheers to changes, life bonds, and goodbyes that are not
forever.
Lauren
